1 00:01:10,480 --> 00:01:13,880 Well it’s really wonderful to be a Christian. 2 00:01:13,880 --> 00:01:19,280 I've been raised without my dad and it’s 3 00:01:19,280 --> 00:01:23,279 really precious for me to call my God 4 00:01:23,279 --> 00:01:25,759 my father, my own Father. And that 5 00:01:25,759 --> 00:01:29,439 I can have a personal relationship with him. 6 00:01:29,439 --> 00:01:33,759 And that he is the closest person that 7 00:01:33,759 --> 00:01:38,239 I do have. However it’s not always that easy. 8 00:01:38,239 --> 00:01:42,799 I have to face many temptations 9 00:01:42,799 --> 00:01:46,199 and many obstacles. 10 00:01:47,399 --> 00:01:50,799 The biggest one I think is to be obedient 11 00:01:50,799 --> 00:01:52,879 and to respect and honor my mom 12 00:01:52,879 --> 00:01:54,679 in a proper way. 13 00:01:54,679 --> 00:01:57,199 My mom has many emotional problems 14 00:01:57,199 --> 00:02:00,279 caused by her previous divorces 15 00:02:00,279 --> 00:02:05,079 and that's why my reactions toward her 16 00:02:05,079 --> 00:02:10,519 strange behaviors are very often improper. 17 00:02:10,519 --> 00:02:12,760 And I know that I sin against her 18 00:02:12,760 --> 00:02:14,640 and against God as well. 19 00:02:14,640 --> 00:02:18,040 Because we all know that we are to be 20 00:02:18,040 --> 00:02:21,800 obedient and we are to respect and honor 21 00:02:21,800 --> 00:02:25,640 our parents and very often I don't simply. 22 00:02:39,120 --> 00:02:42,920 It’s not a difficult thing for me to forgive other 23 00:02:42,920 --> 00:02:46,639 people, however it’s very difficult 24 00:02:46,639 --> 00:02:49,119 for me to forgive myself. 25 00:02:49,319 --> 00:02:51,359 Well, when I sin against God 26 00:02:51,359 --> 00:02:54,039 or have this feeling within me that I'm 27 00:02:54,039 --> 00:02:56,399 hopeless and pitiful and that 28 00:02:56,399 --> 00:03:01,039 I've disappointed God and that he will not be 29 00:03:01,039 --> 00:03:03,919 able to forgive me. 30 00:03:04,359 --> 00:03:07,759 And I feel horrible in such moments. 31 00:03:07,759 --> 00:03:12,119 But I have been given the Holy Spirit 32 00:03:12,399 --> 00:03:16,199 who is my helper, who is the voice within me. 33 00:03:17,199 --> 00:03:19,359 Who urges me and motivates me 34 00:03:19,359 --> 00:03:22,759 and encourages me to confess my sins 35 00:03:22,759 --> 00:03:25,119 and ask God for forgiveness. 36 00:03:25,119 --> 00:03:28,039 And that is such a wonderful thing to know 37 00:03:28,039 --> 00:03:30,479 that I don't have to rely only on myself, 38 00:03:30,479 --> 00:03:34,799 but I’ve got this helper who comes 39 00:03:34,799 --> 00:03:37,399 from my God. 40 00:03:39,279 --> 00:03:41,919 And when I receive forgiveness 41 00:03:43,479 --> 00:03:46,879 I feel so free, I feel so pure. 42 00:03:48,479 --> 00:03:51,359 Well, I realize that there is still some 43 00:03:51,359 --> 00:03:53,639 some hope for me. 44 00:03:54,439 --> 00:03:58,359 Last weekend I attend my friends wedding. 45 00:03:58,359 --> 00:04:01,759 And I thought that God was leading me to talk 46 00:04:01,759 --> 00:04:04,719 with a friend of mine. 47 00:04:04,719 --> 00:04:07,239 That was a wonderful conversation. 48 00:04:07,239 --> 00:04:09,439 We had a great time with each other. 49 00:04:09,439 --> 00:04:12,239 And she had such a profound need to 50 00:04:12,239 --> 00:04:15,279 reveal her feelings, to share with her 51 00:04:15,279 --> 00:04:19,759 difficult experiences concerning her 52 00:04:19,759 --> 00:04:24,880 low self-esteem and relationship problems. 53 00:04:24,880 --> 00:04:28,680 And I was so thankful that I could somehow 54 00:04:28,680 --> 00:04:31,600 hear God's voice and obey this 55 00:04:31,600 --> 00:04:35,000 and through this conversation, served her. 56 00:04:53,720 --> 00:04:56,760 I am aware of the fact that God wants me 57 00:04:56,760 --> 00:04:59,760 to live a lifestyle of purity. 58 00:05:00,360 --> 00:05:04,480 Well, I have a tremendous desire to first 59 00:05:04,480 --> 00:05:07,880 be liked by my God and then by my boyfriend. 60 00:05:07,880 --> 00:05:11,280 And also to keep as much as possible 61 00:05:11,280 --> 00:05:13,880 for my future husband. 62 00:05:13,880 --> 00:05:17,920 I have a boyfriend, and we struggle with 63 00:05:17,920 --> 00:05:22,200 the physical sphere of our relationship. 64 00:05:22,480 --> 00:05:28,199 Well, we face many temptations and that is 65 00:05:28,479 --> 00:05:32,399 really difficult to be obedient and to 66 00:05:32,399 --> 00:05:34,319 reject those temptations. 67 00:05:34,319 --> 00:05:36,319 However I know that God is with me 68 00:05:36,319 --> 00:05:39,719 and the Holy Spirit is within me 69 00:05:39,719 --> 00:05:41,559 to motivate me and encourage me 70 00:05:41,559 --> 00:05:44,439 and to help me to reject those temptations. 71 00:05:44,639 --> 00:05:48,679 So, I just want to do my best to 72 00:05:49,319 --> 00:05:52,199 be pure because I know that is a wonderful 73 00:05:52,199 --> 00:05:56,839 thing to be pure and to do my best 74 00:05:56,839 --> 00:05:58,279 in order to achieve it. 75 00:05:58,479 --> 00:06:02,439 So it’s really a very hard thing to do, 76 00:06:02,439 --> 00:06:06,079 but it’s worth it. Yeah, it’s worth it. 77 00:06:09,559 --> 00:06:13,919 A few days ago I had my quiet time and I read 78 00:06:13,919 --> 00:06:16,439 in the book of Samuel that God is 79 00:06:16,439 --> 00:06:20,359 much more delighted in our obedience, 80 00:06:20,359 --> 00:06:24,119 rather than our offerings, or serving him. 81 00:06:24,119 --> 00:06:26,079 I was really surprised by this fact. 82 00:06:26,079 --> 00:06:29,479 That he wants me and he values 83 00:06:30,359 --> 00:06:34,119 much more my obedience towards him 84 00:06:34,119 --> 00:06:37,839 rather than singing for him or 85 00:06:39,439 --> 00:06:40,959 worshiping him. 86 00:06:40,959 --> 00:06:43,199 And that is what I'm going to do. 87 00:06:43,439 --> 00:06:47,419 Just simply obey him, obey his will.