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I used to be a person who

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only thought about himself.

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I wanted to become somebody,

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I wanted to have power in life,

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to be above other people. And

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that was my goal when I was a teenager.

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I thought God was somebody far away

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in heaven. Sitting with angels. You know,

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of course he had some power but

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he didn’t use his power at all.

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At least not in my life,

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and not in the life of my family.

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My family was not a happy one,

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I was not very happy as a kid.

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So God was just an anonymous person.

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I was going to church and I stopped

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when I was around 12 or 13

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because it was so boring to go there.

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I didn't feel a very good atmosphere

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of the church when I was a teenager

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so I stopped;

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but I didn't stop to pray to God,

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I prayed every evening, I prayed to God.

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Once my dad read a short article about

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an English course with Americans

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in a church in Katowice

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and I decided "yeh I like languages."

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I was 16 at that time. It was vacation time,

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a 10 day course, almost free, why not try it?

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That was a shock for me. When I entered this church

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where the English was taking place

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(I thought), "Wow those people."

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They had something in them.

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Something that was attractive for me.

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I didn't know at that time what it was,

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but it was love. They had love.

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So that was I guess one of the main reasons

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why I decided to start my life with God.

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Because they told me later

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that they have this love from God.

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And those Christians told me that

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God gives real meaning and sense to my life,

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and I don’t have to be on my own, you know.

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And after the English course ended,

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I tried to be a Christian, I tried to

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have a relationship with God. But it lasted

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only 30 days because I was on my own.

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And after a year I refreshed my contact with

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those Christians, I made friends with the

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youth group there and that was the time

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when my real adventure with God started.

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After some time God started to really

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change my values. I am educated

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but that’s not very important for me.

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I have some money, but I wouldn’t trade

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a friend for even the best car.

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I can’t imagine not loving other people.

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I can’t imagine not being loved by God.

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This is what really drives my life right now.

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When I wake up I know that He loves me

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and I can share His love with others

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and give them something and make them

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smile and make them feel loved by God.

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Earlier, the only person I could lean on

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was me. And when my father died 4 years ago

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I could no longer lean on my self.

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I turned to God and He came to me.

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And He touched my heart.

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Jesus at that time was so close

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I could feel His presence, His love,

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His touch on me. He started to

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give me security in that difficult moment.

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Of course, I did feel a lot of pain, but I knew

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that he was right beside me to support me,

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to show that I am important to Him and that

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I'm not alone and that

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He will never leave me alone.

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I know that I am secure with God,

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that He uses me, He wants me in ministry.

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And by doing that, He gives me purpose

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of life. This purpose is no longer

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money or power or education.

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But just being in the church and being

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used by him.

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Right now I see many people who want to

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know God, but they don't know how to live.

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And I try to have a relationship with them,

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I try to make friends with them and just

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be there for them.

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Through that, I can give something to them,

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I can love them and I can see them grow.

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That's very important for me

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that God is using me, you know?

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I used to work on myself only.

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To change myself. But that didn’t work,

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Because I'm just a human being,

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I don’t have that much strength.

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But then Jesus Christ stepped into my life

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and he showed me that He is interested

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in changing me.

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Through His grace,

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through His church that He gave me.

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I was a very, very proud person and

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I never knew how to ask other for help,

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I wanted to do everything myself.

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And now God puts me into situations where

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I have to ask other people "Can you help me?

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Can you teach me that?

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Can you show me  that?"

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And that's very hard for me

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but that's one of the examples of how

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He wants to change my life,

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not through my strength,

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but through His grace and His church.